What do I want to be when I grow up?

 I married young, had my kids young, and didnt have a “career” so as to speak.  I worked jobs, in a doc’s office, giving tuitions and then the last one in CO, selling things at craft fairs.   I seriously dont know what will I do when Samar  goes off to Kinder. I dont want to stay home forever. But what will I do? I need to go back to school now and start training for something so that when he goes off to Kinder/first grade, I will have a “career”

The other thing that also prompted this is a thought, what if NK(choy choy) dies? How will I support the kids? Then I thought at least I will have his life insurance money but what if he has an affair and leaves me? What will I do then?  I dont want to go back to my parent’s house. I dont want to be a burden, so what will I do ? side note, I dont have life insurance. If I die, NK is screwed. I told him he needs to insure my life as well because seriously daycare costs will kill him. Do you guys like how cheerful and happy we are?

I came up with some things.

Get certified as a personal trainer.. I might do this when I achieve my BMI goal. It’s pretty easy to get the certification online(6 months and $500-600) But I need to lose more weight first, because who wants to hire a fat personal trainer?

Start taking some courses at the community college. But what?

Then I started listing what I can do/did:

  • Outgoing, not afraid to speak up
  • Speaks Malay, Mandarin,Hindi(ha!)
  • 10 years of child -rearing experience
  • Writing a blog for 4 years
  • Lost some 60 lbs in 2 years

And I got more depressed. I dont have anything to list! I asked NK and he said I could be anything I want to be. Tum inti smart ho kuch bhi karti sakti ho. (You are smart, that you can be anything you want to be) I looked at him suspiciously, Why are you being nice. What did you do wrong? He laughed and said nothing, I am being supportive.

I still havent come up with anything. What can I do? Ideas??

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62 Responses to What do I want to be when I grow up?

  1. choxbox says:

    so many great suggestions.

    go for it babe!

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  5. Anita says:

    Hmm, not really. It just felt like a continuation of what we were talking about on Sat.

  6. Anita says:

    Oooh, working at a college is a good idea. I know a single mom who did that.

  7. Anita says:

    BTW I forgot to mention, we love your kids. We were talking yesterday about how cute and fun your kids are. I love how your older two are so good with my boys. Next time we can do something in the afternoon so they have more time to play Wii. =)

    Me: I’m sure they would love it.

  8. Solilo says:

    Also, in between the decision process, you can always volunteer and utilize your time.

    Me: Between my gym, the kids school drop off, blogging, my 10 week evening photography class and the volunteer job at Samar’s preschool, no time at all!! Maybe next fall, when Samar goes 3x a week, I can do some volunteer stuff

  9. Perakath says:

    “Go in and leave a post saying I died.” Hahaha!

  10. Trish says:

    she is in store sales.LOL @ spending the pay check there!

  11. Sue Gir says:

    That’s a personal question. We’ll discuss by email ;-)

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